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Wednesday, September 27, 2006
she lures me in
by the teasing and tickling of her fingertips
and leads me to a corner
where she curves her lips
genlty across my neck,
whispering sensations
that could only be mine...
"would you have me for the moment?" she smiles.
i give
and pretend
that she had as well.
the liar.
she had me
more than a moment's worth.
and all i gained
was another death,
which could not only
be mine alone.
--jualomar
10:64-020606
Posted at 05:41 pm by Decaffeinated
Thursday, August 10, 2006
in UST,
main bldg. lobby.
Thursday, 2 weeks ago.
13:05
ian: ayoko na. tinatamad na ako. last week sabi niyo "next week". ngayong next week na,
next week pa ulit. kung di na ngayon, wag na lang. wag na tayo magpractice ulit ever.
me: (gally, ang dramers naman) promise, by next week, naasikaso ko na yun. it's just one day
taken out of my week. 150 pesos lang naman yun eh. Trina and the others can handle
the Koreans.
ian: hindi, marti. ok lang. trabaho naman kasi yun eh. ok lang talaaga, marti. just go.
me: eh di kayo na lang tumugtog. practisin niyo na lang yung mga kanta, para ok na kayo
sa mga chords at lyrics pagsalin ko next week.
ben: ano yun, walang drums?
me: oo, bakit? di ba pwede yun?
ben: ano ka ba, hindi pwede! kung walang drums, eh di walang soul.
...
my life, these days,
feels like this.
without soul.
like a heart that lost rythm.
like a drummer, odd-timing in the wrong song.
i just can't bring myself to write everything, or at least the idea of it here in my blog.
the past two filler posts were just...well, filler posts.
hopefully, i'll start blogging regularly again.
meanwhile, thank you to those people whom i've confided with and understood, and are still understanding.
i love you all.
-jualomar
Posted at 08:34 pm by Decaffeinated
Monday, August 07, 2006
12/30/05 Macapagal area
23:00
pyro olympics. behind The Mall of Asia
jorem and i were on our way down off the stage, when suddenly
what the heck?? he's going this way?!
ok. relax. are you going to shake his hand
or just walk past him 'cause you know, who the hell are you shake his hand?? you're just a lowly photographer who's camera is just a freak'n digi-instamatic!
dammit! don't tell me to relax!
drat.
here he comes.
alright, this is your chance.
don't shy on this one now!
"ang husay... ang husay. ang husay talaga..."
those were the only words that came out of my mouth as i held out my hand to shake his.
and i didn't care if he wasn't going to shake my hand. i'd understand. after all, he is Karl Roy, THE Karl Roy.
Posted at 03:57 pm by Decaffeinated
Saturday, July 22, 2006
track #67: the chasm beyond the churning foams
03:00am 05/18/05 iloilo to metro manila
on-broard the Princess Of Negros.
...
"what if the sea, as we see it now...beyond the splashes, beyond the churning whites beside the boat is no body of water... instead, just open space with jagged rocks on the bottom, sharp mountain peaks of that sort..." Lissa said, with her hands and feet on the railing. i felt nervous for her.
"it's like a waterfall," she continued. "but you can't see the bottom."
"... that's scary..." i said, more in wonder than in fear...but readied myslef in case she slips.
"yup," she agreed, her eyes, still as the moonlight, stared off to the ocean of stars, as the wind embraced her body.
"one wrong step...and you're gone."
...
Posted at 04:04 am by Decaffeinated
Friday, April 29, 2005
so much bloggable stuff have piled up, i don't know where to start. so for a filler post, here's what i've been up to this summer:
- 'slamming the mat' regularly (and loving it). para kung harangin man ako sa college...
- enrolled in UST last friday. made a new friend.
- summer camps. was a staff this recent CFC youth camp, which was directed by ate stef. i'll be going to an ISCF leadership camp this coming may 9, in Iloilo.
- been reading House Of Leaves and some of Edgar Allan Poe's works. yeah, suspense is my thing nowadays. and some Filipino lit. like works of Jun Cruz Reyes and Bob Ong. they amuse me very much.
- and that's my dear friend, nikki, down there. (i hope you don't mind me posting your cute, adorable li'l friendster pic here).
"It's like peanut butter but better! (Pwede na?)"
and almost suddenly, i had an idea:
choconut sandwich
yEhessss *drooling*
although, unlike the icecream sanwich i toasted before, this is certainly going to feel dry on the tongue... but no less yummy. Aahhh... *more drooling*
- i've also been reviewing my highschool physics, studying those lessons we didn't get to tackle.
yeah.
boring, you'd say.
but i like it.
even if it makes me look geeky.
well, i better like it
or else...
haha.
agh.
we still haven't found a place for me to stay. near UST, i mean.
...maybe i'll just pitch a tent there and hunt wild game for breakfast, as suggested by april.
hmm...pwede.
- i've been a Alien Versus Predator addict lately. i've been downloading the comics and reading them the whole afternoon. haha. i'm such a geek. i even have the game on the other pc!
- hannah and i had to chaperone patty and yonni twice already in greenbelt. "we really should be getting paid for this..." -hannah. we watched Closer (i like the movie's soundtrack). then for their next date, Finding Neverland(<--really good movie.). and not to for get the CAFE BOLA Incident. i don't think i can ever go back there again...
i miss having lunch with cola, hannah, and patty...
- my current crush: kelly misa. she's just soo... haaaaayy.... (babe-post soon to come!) - been watching LOST episodes (just finished ep.20 last night) and Scrubs. ...
Posted at 04:52 pm by Decaffeinated
Thursday, March 31, 2005
track #65: to my highschool days and beyond
i remember writing this in one of my many early mornings during 3rd year, floaty headed and all, on an early sunrise in Daang Hari. i searched and failed, but was found by the words instead...
may the waves of uncertainty
crash into my shores.
may the passing days haste
as they always have before.
yet let the sunset be my state of mind
to be an echoing portrait
of the things i left behind.
...
congratulations batchmates
thank you friends
thank you Lord
highschool was fun (i think..haha.)
although i really don't feel like talking about it right now...
but senior year was especially fun. =)
sigh*
...
it's feels nice not to worry about anything, even just for four days.
on monday, i'll be back at school and finally get those last two signatures on my clearance paper. get my grades. rush to UST. get back to Cavite for our youth camp in Paliparan(that's right, faith. CFC. embrace the fragrance. ). Applied Physics. there. happy? "whoa. applied physics?!?panindigan mo yan ha!" -sir igen.
agh. enough already.
Posted at 11:06 am by Decaffeinated
Sunday, March 20, 2005
track #64: the sweetest good night
on the phone minutes ago:
mark: ok. basta bukas, sa ATC tayo susundoin. sa tuesday recording, dad ko na ang bahala.
me: yeah...basta dude, aalis tayo at around 7. aghh...
mark: hey..matulog ka nga ng maaga... you sound like a drug addict.
...
current music: damaged [by plumb]
Posted at 11:04 pm by Decaffeinated
Thursday, March 17, 2005
i'm graduating soon. going to college. and all that mac.
i really don't know how i should feel about it.
yeah, i know you'll tell to be happy. you'll have a new life. a new start on things.
yeah. thanks. but no thanks.
i'm not really sure if i'm even going to say to my younger friends or (to myself0 that "the best years of my life were during highschool." like how most of my older friends say it.
i don't know what to feel.
do i even need to know what i should feel? even with that i'm not sure of.
and please don't ask me what course i'll be taking. i'm getting sick of answering people.
no, i'm not that sure yet. i'll just let you guys know.
Posted at 12:13 am by Decaffeinated
Monday, February 28, 2005
track #62: skipping class for this
ok then, since i can't remember what i was going to blog about. and beacause bianx said so. =)
my current Random 10
- I Like It by Kapatid - a really fun[ny] song
- Blue Eyes by Cary Brothers - yes, the Garden State Soundtrack does rock.
- Lowdown by My Morning Jacket - my lounge song (thanks, deus.)
- Sex And Candy by Marcy Playground - yeah baby...
- Edge of the Ocean by Ivy - another lounge song
- Let that Be Enough by Switchfoot and Jars of Clay - mrs. jo caught me teary-eyed one morning...damn mp3 player.
- Sunday Morning by Maroon 5
- Don't Panic by Cold Play - i feel less agitated after listening to this song.
- Can't Stop Falling In Love With You by HillSongs - i miss going to Full Cup. (ailene!!! :P )
- Sunday Bloody Sunday by U2 - i really loved how Pillar covered this song. my ideal heavy rock.
what is the total amount of music in your PC?
1.7 gigs, according to ate stef.
The last CD i bought: does a Vertabim CD-R count?
The last song you listened to before this message? Times Like These (Acoustic) )by Foo Fighters
5 songs you listen to a lot and mean a lot to you
- If You Let Me by Small Town Poets - "..i've never qualified for sympathy, but i am not without love."
- Pinch Me by Bare Naked Ladies - my favorite cousin and i used to sing this song together while listening to it, when we were kids.
- Never Let You Down by The Vere Pipe
- Wouldn't It Be Nice by The Beach Boys - "basta". ;)
- No One Loves Me Like You by Jars Of Clay - No one can ever come close on how my God loves me.
Who are the people you're going to pass this on to: to my 3 SPEDlings!!
1. patty because i like her weird music.
2. hannah because she has a lot of songs that mean a lot to her.
3. nicola because i allowed her to mess up my friendster profile. :D
Posted at 09:10 am by Decaffeinated
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
track #61: it's about time. right, pat? :D
Hannah invited her close friends to come with her family and family-friends to their villa
in puerto azul, for her birthday celebration. It was a three-day stay, January 7-9. we got there at around 11 pm, and went to the beach the next afternoon.
here are a couple of pics i took:
the sunset was behind the mountains. but it was alright.
hey faith! ask Iza if she still remembers the F.R.O.G. bracelet she gave me, will ya? :) thanks.
it's still with me, somewhere in my room...i think..
--how do you turn this into black and white using adobe photoshop? i was using my uncle's
digicam, and there was no one with us who can read Chinese.
"i thought i saw a flying pig..." -cola
---
the last night:
--taken by patty.
"...trying to keep the love alive..." -cola
"hey, cool! angel wings!" -patty.
---
by the way, my prom date's somewhere up there in those pictures. hehe. yes, there are other pics. but they didn't want me to post them. (ahh..so that's why there were no faces...)
sayang nga eh. she didn't want me to post the "hey sexy momma" picture of her on the beach. (i'd bet you'd kill me if i did eh? >:) )
speaking of the prom...
i'll be posting some pics soon after i get the other photos.
so...
so long, cheeldrehhn...
currently feeling: nauseated from the bus ride home.
Posted at 08:15 pm by Decaffeinated
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