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track #70: lady lust

Wed, 27 Sep 2006 08:11:42 GMT

she lures me in
by the teasing and tickling of her fingertips
and leads me to a corner
where she curves her lips

genlty across my neck,
whispering sensations
that could only be mine...

"would you have me for the moment?" she smiles.

i give
and pretend
that she had as well.

the liar.

she had me
more than a moment's worth.

and all i gained
was another death,

which could not only
be mine alone.

--jualomar

10:64-020606

track #69: still no soul

Thu, 10 Aug 2006 11:04:03 GMT

in UST,
main bldg. lobby.
Thursday, 2 weeks ago.
13:05

ian:    ayoko na. tinatamad na ako. last week sabi niyo "next week". ngayong next week na,
        next week pa ulit. kung di na ngayon, wag na lang. wag na tayo magpractice ulit ever.

me:     (gally, ang dramers naman) promise, by next week, naasikaso ko na yun. it's just one day
        taken out of my week. 150 pesos lang naman yun eh. Trina and the others can handle
        the Koreans.

ian:    hindi, marti. ok lang. trabaho naman kasi yun eh. ok lang talaaga, marti. just go.

me:    eh di kayo na lang tumugtog. practisin niyo na lang yung mga kanta, para ok na kayo
        sa mga chords at lyrics pagsalin ko next week.

ben:    ano yun, walang drums?

me:    oo, bakit? di ba pwede yun?

ben:    ano ka ba, hindi pwede! kung walang drums, eh di walang soul.

...

my life, these days,
feels like this.
without soul.

like a heart that lost rythm.
like a drummer, odd-timing in the wrong song.

i just can't bring myself to write everything, or at least the idea of it here in my blog.
the past two filler posts were just...well, filler posts.

hopefully, i'll start blogging regularly again.

meanwhile, thank you to those people whom i've confided with and understood, and are still understanding.

i love you all.

-jualomar

track #68: star struck

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 06:27:16 GMT

12/30/05 Macapagal area
23:00
pyro olympics. behind The Mall of Asia

jorem and i were on our way down off the stage, when suddenly

what the heck?? he's going this way?!
ok. relax.

are you going to shake his hand
or just walk past him 'cause you know, who the hell are you shake his hand?? you're just a lowly photographer who's camera is just a freak'n digi-instamatic!
dammit! don't tell me to relax!
drat.
here he comes.
alright, this is your chance.
don't shy on this one now!

"ang husay... ang husay. ang husay talaga..."

those were the only words that came out of my mouth as i held out my hand to shake his.
and i didn't care if he wasn't going to shake my hand. i'd understand.

after all, he is Karl Roy,

THE Karl Roy.

track #67: the chasm beyond the churning foams

Fri, 21 Jul 2006 18:34:07 GMT

03:00am

05/18/05 iloilo to metro manila
on-broard the Princess Of Negros.

...

"what if the sea, as we see it now...beyond the splashes, beyond the churning whites beside the boat is no body of water... instead, just open space with jagged rocks on the bottom, sharp mountain peaks of that sort..." Lissa said, with her hands and feet on the railing.

i felt nervous for her.

"it's like a waterfall," she continued. "but you can't see the bottom."

"... that's scary..." i said, more in wonder than in fear...but readied myslef in case she slips.

"yup," she agreed,

her eyes, still as the moonlight, stared off to the ocean of stars, as the wind embraced her body.

"one wrong step...and you're gone."

...

track #66: dehydrated

Fri, 29 Apr 2005 07:22:11 GMT

so much bloggable stuff have piled up, i don't know where to start. so for a filler post, here's what i've been up to this summer:

- 'slamming the mat' regularly (and loving it). para kung harangin man ako sa college...

-   enrolled in UST last friday. made a new friend.

-   summer camps. was a staff this recent CFC youth camp, which was directed by ate stef. i'll be going to an ISCF leadership camp this coming may 9, in Iloilo.

-   been reading House Of Leaves and some of Edgar Allan Poe's works. yeah, suspense is my thing nowadays. and some Filipino lit. like works of Jun Cruz Reyes and Bob Ong. they amuse me very much.

- and that's my dear friend, nikki, down there. (i hope you don't mind me posting your cute, adorable li'l friendster pic here).

"It's like peanut butter but better! (Pwede na?)"

  and almost suddenly, i had an idea:

   choconut sandwich

  yEhessss *drooling*

   although, unlike the icecream sanwich i toasted before, this is certainly going to feel dry on the tongue... but no less yummy. Aahhh... *more drooling*

-   i've also been reviewing my highschool physics, studying those lessons we didn't get to tackle.

   yeah.
   boring, you'd say.

   but i like it.
   even if it makes me look geeky.

   well, i better like it
   or else...
   haha.

   agh.

   we still haven't found a place for me to stay. near UST, i mean.
   ...maybe i'll just pitch a tent there and hunt wild game for breakfast, as suggested by april.
   hmm...pwede.

-   i've been a Alien Versus Predator addict lately. i've been downloading the comics and reading them the whole afternoon. haha. i'm such a geek. i even have the game on the other pc!

-   hannah and i had to chaperone patty and yonni twice already in greenbelt. "we really should be getting paid for this..." -hannah.   we watched Closer (i like the movie's soundtrack). then for their next date, Finding Neverland(<--really good movie.). and not to for get the CAFE BOLA Incident. i don't think i can ever go back there again...

   i miss having lunch with cola, hannah, and patty...

-   my current crush: kelly misa. she's just soo... haaaaayy.... (babe-post soon to come!)

-   been watching LOST episodes (just finished ep.20 last night) and Scrubs.

...

track #65: to my highschool days and beyond

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 01:36:00 GMT

i remember writing this in one of my many early mornings during 3rd year, floaty headed and all, on an early sunrise in Daang Hari. i searched and failed, but was found by the words instead...

may the waves of uncertainty

crash into my shores.

may the passing days haste

as they always have before.

yet let the sunset be my state of mind

to be an echoing portrait

of the things i left behind.

...

congratulations batchmates

thank you friends

thank you Lord

highschool was fun (i think..haha.)
although i really don't feel like talking about it right now...

but senior year was especially fun. =)

sigh*

...

it's feels nice not to worry about anything, even just for four days.
on monday, i'll be back at school and finally get those last two signatures on my clearance paper. get my grades. rush to UST. get back to Cavite for our youth camp in Paliparan(that's right, faith. CFC. embrace the fragrance. ). Applied Physics. there. happy? "whoa. applied physics?!?panindigan mo yan ha!" -sir igen.

agh. enough already.

track #64: the sweetest good night

Sun, 20 Mar 2005 13:34:54 GMT

on the phone minutes ago:

mark: ok. basta bukas, sa ATC tayo susundoin. sa tuesday recording, dad ko na ang bahala.

me: yeah...basta dude, aalis tayo at around 7. aghh...

mark: hey..matulog ka nga ng maaga... you sound like a drug addict.

...

current music: damaged [by plumb]

track #63

Wed, 16 Mar 2005 14:43:43 GMT

i'm graduating soon. going to college. and all that mac.

i really don't know how i should feel about it.

yeah, i know you'll tell to be happy. you'll have a new life. a new start on things.

yeah. thanks. but no thanks.

i'm not really sure if i'm even going to say to my younger friends or (to myself0 that "the best years of my life were during highschool." like how most of my older friends say it.

i don't know what to feel.

do i even need to know what i should feel? even with that i'm not sure of.

and please don't ask me what course i'll be taking. i'm getting sick of answering people.
no, i'm not that sure yet. i'll just let you guys know.

track #62: skipping class for this

Sun, 27 Feb 2005 23:40:43 GMT

ok then, since i can't remember what i was going to blog about. and beacause bianx said so. =)

my current Random 10

I Like It by Kapatid - a really fun[ny] song
Blue Eyes by Cary Brothers - yes, the Garden State Soundtrack does rock.
Lowdown by My Morning Jacket - my lounge song (thanks, deus.)
Sex And Candy by Marcy Playground - yeah baby...
Edge of the Ocean by Ivy - another lounge song
Let that Be Enough by Switchfoot and Jars of Clay - mrs. jo caught me teary-eyed one morning...damn mp3 player.
Sunday Morning by Maroon 5
Don't Panic by Cold Play - i feel less agitated after listening to this song.
Can't Stop Falling In Love With You by HillSongs - i miss going to Full Cup. (ailene!!! :P )
Sunday Bloody Sunday by U2 - i really loved how Pillar covered this song. my ideal heavy rock.

what is the total amount of music in your PC?
1.7 gigs, according to ate stef.

The last CD i bought: does a Vertabim CD-R count?

The last song you listened to before this message? Times Like These (Acoustic) )by Foo Fighters

5 songs you listen to a lot and mean a lot to you

If You Let Me by Small Town Poets - "..i've never qualified for sympathy, but i am not without love."
Pinch Me by Bare Naked Ladies - my favorite cousin and i used to sing this song together while listening to it, when we were kids.
Never Let You Down by The Vere Pipe
Wouldn't It Be Nice by The Beach Boys - "basta". ;)
No One Loves Me Like You by Jars Of Clay - No one can ever come close on how my God loves me.

Who are the people you're going to pass this on to: to my 3 SPEDlings!!

1. patty because i like her weird music.
2. hannah because she has a lot of songs that mean a lot to her.
3. nicola because i allowed her to mess up my friendster profile. :D

track #61: it's about time. right, pat? :D

Tue, 22 Feb 2005 10:45:19 GMT

Hannah invited her close friends to come with her family and family-friends to their villa
in puerto azul, for her birthday celebration. It was a three-day stay, January 7-9. we got there at around 11 pm, and went to the beach the next afternoon.

here are a couple of pics i took:

the sunset was behind the mountains. but it was alright.

hey faith! ask Iza if she still remembers the F.R.O.G. bracelet she gave me, will ya? :) thanks.
it's still with me, somewhere in my room...i think..

--how do you turn this into black and white using adobe photoshop? i was using my uncle's
digicam, and there was no one with us who can read Chinese.

"i thought i saw a flying pig..." -cola

---

the last night:

--taken by patty.
"...trying to keep the love alive..." -cola

"hey, cool! angel wings!" -patty.

---

by the way, my prom date's somewhere up there in those pictures. hehe. yes, there are other pics. but they didn't want me to post them. (ahh..so that's why there were no faces...)
sayang nga eh. she didn't want me to post the "hey sexy momma" picture of her on the beach. (i'd bet you'd kill me if i did eh? >:) )

speaking of the prom...
i'll be posting some pics soon after i get the other photos.

so...

so long, cheeldrehhn...

currently feeling: nauseated from the bus ride home.